Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Terms of Agreement

I'm not much of the writer, so bear with me. For the past year and a half, after my big break with the big ex, I have been searching for myself. Maybe, this is a redundant fact stated by many twenty-somethings in an attempt to sound deep or maybe, it's a fact of being a woman in your 20s, regardless of where you are or what you do for a living.

I'm an actress. My entire life is built on words and the use of those words to build laughter and entertainment, stun an audience into silence, cut to the heart of the receiver. My effective use of the English language has filled my heart with joy and also, hurt me and others in many ways. Before I realize what I'm about, my words are slicing to the heart of, not an audience, but a loved one. A mother. A boyfriend. A stranger who has crossed me the wrong way. And it flows effortlessly from brain to tongue to receiver, often without a second thought and driven by my everlasting need to be heard. And not just heard, but understood and empathized with.

That being said, after a handful of failed relationships (some more life altering than others), I am alone. And for the first time, in a very long while, I am content with that fact. I rejoice at the knowledge that I have changed into a completely different woman in the past 5 years and I am finally ready to get to know that woman. I've got a lot to offer...to myself. And as I journey through my Adventures in Spinsterhood, I hope to learn to turn that word into a term I hold with pride, as men cling to the term "Bachelor." I refuse to be embarrassed, but empowered. And there will be food, by golly. And lots of it. And that food will be prepared for me and the occasional friend, who I deem worthy to partake of my lovely, single, womanly goodness.

So, if you decide to read about the adventures of a single girl and her slightly eccentric dog, I hope you laugh or cry or, at the very least, are left thought-provoked. And, if you are left with none of these things, comment and challenge my views of the world ahead of me.





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  2. I think this is great. Gives me an idea. I look forward to reading your exploits. I have always liked your honesty. I know I have learned a few things. One note child. As long as you love you there is little chance you will ever be lonely for long. You attract people because of who you are. One piece of advice though. Be careful of whom you give your trust for it is something worth more than anything. Remember those who know you well will always think highly of you if you are always the person that you have shown. You are a special gift and the Universe is most pleased that you are in it.

    ~ Peace

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